This year. Meh?

This year is fast coming to a close, so I decided to write something. I decided to write anything.

I’ve used my page and my writings to be thought provoking and inspirational. That was my goal.

This year has exhausted my mind and my heart.

One set back after another and one inevitable change after another. Previously it was regarding my health. Now, it has focused on my family.

When it was simply my health, it was more manageable. It only involved one individual and one problem.

Despite my frustrations with my brain activity, I could still focus on the problem at hand, break it down, analyze it, and put a plan into action.

God’s grace has had everything to do with any progress that I’ve benefited from in sustaining my health. My prayers led to opportunities and contacts that led to treatments which have allowed me to remain healthy enough to care for those in my life that need my help.

The help given doesn’t come without a cost. I often make the choice to help others instead of keeping a regimen of self-care that I know I must do for my quality of life.

This year came with challenges and stresses that extended beyond me. The issues have mounted to the point where most people would give up or make drastic and irreparable decisions.

We are still in the game. My small army of three still looks to a future. I think in quiet moments, trying to find the source of our will.

Faith.

Love.

Faith and love are the strongest component in our survival. There are others like trust and honesty to be sure.

I question why I came back from my heart event often. I struggle to see how my being here has helped those around me that I love and if there really are ripples of my actions that make a difference.

The love I have for my family (related by blood and otherwise) is what made me fight to come back. It’s what keeps me here.

I suppose my point to message is for those that are struggling and suffer in silence is what I tell myself everyday.

You matter. You have purpose. It doesn’t matter that you don’t see it. Even if you don’t really believe it, tell yourself that your good actions and intentions are necessary it has to be you to make it happen.

Think of one goal to inspire you to have purpose. Meditate on it. Make that your mission for the day. I’m sure that if you do that, you will have mad4 it through another day.